So I quit smoking... yay me? Why is it that everytime I quit smoking stuff goes wrong? So yeah that thing with the guy, it didn't work. Seriously I tried for a day maybe but I just couldn't take not being around him you know? It's like if I can't have what I want I'll take what I can get. So yeah we were all kissy and stuff the day after I posted that, well night more accurately. Cuz see Thursday night I went to the bonfire to talk to him, and somehow I ended up in the gazebo on the swing with my head in his lap. Bad me. Things were going good since then, so they seemed I was happy anyway, he must not have been though, cuz he told me last night that he wanted to go back to being friends. So now, what choice do I have? I can get upset, and cry and maybe guilt him about it but I wouldn't be happy like that and he sure as hell wouldn't be either, so I have to pretend that its ok, and even though its not I'll get over it. This really sucks. But as with everything that happens badly in my life I'll get over it cuz what choice do I have, I could be upset about it for the rest of my life and let it eat away at me or I can push it away and feel nothing so that I can get through this and do what I have to do.

Song Of The Day

I Could Fall In Love by Selena

I could lose my heart tonight
If you don't turn and walk away
'Cause the way I feel I might
Lose control and let you stay
'Cause I could take you in my arms
And never let go

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

I could only wonder how
Touching you would make me feel
But if I take that chance right now
Tomorrow will you want me still?
So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

And I know it's not right
And I guess I should try to do what I should do
But I could fall in love
Fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

Siempre estoy soñando en ti
Besandos mis labios, acariciando mi piel
Abrazandome con ansias locas
Imaginando que me amas
Cómo yo podria amar a ti

So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love
I could fall in love
With you...